Ok, so that worked. Hmm...I guess I will try to use this for inspiration and keeping me on track. Not like I haven't tried this a thousand times before. But maybe, just maybe this time will be different.

We shall see.

hmm.. trying something here. If it works good, if not, then I have all night to work on it.

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So, I have finally something to blog about. Something that has been on my mind since I changed my internet provider.

Who is Susan Shearer?


I am begining to find an answer. But, first a little background.

I changed to a new provider and chose an email address, suprisingly my favorite name was available. Little did I know that it was used before by Susan. Well, as soon as I signed in the first time I had a mailbox full of email. More spam than I thought possible. Along with the spam were the newsgroups she had signed up with.

The newsgroups were things I might actully be interested in. Wolverine, X-Men movie information, Wolverine/Jean, and Convention listings. Then there were some I wasn't as interested in, writing groups, slash writing, and a few that I have no idea what they were about.

The spam has been the usual, but I am starting to think she might have a real interest in this stuff. Canadian drugs, lots of sex sites and how to get a low interest loan, especially from Christian lenders.

As the months have moved on, and my ability to stop the spam has continued, I have started to curse the name Susan Shearer. Why did she get on so damn many mailing lists? Why didn't she cancel her accounts when she stopped having this email? Did she do it on purpose? Or, did she make someone so upset at her in a Wolverine chat group that they signed her up for every spam site they could find?

I will someday find out the truth. It is a quest now.

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People with this disorder tend to see things in terms of extremes, either all good or all bad. They view themselves as victims of circumstances and take little responsibility for themselves or for their problems.

We had a fun seder last night. Very informal and irreverant. My friend Laureen came, it was her first seder. Maybe we should have been more formal, but heck, I just can't be. It would be too boring for the kids.

I talked to the school today, about my graduation. I wanted to be sure everything was all in line. It is, at least for my part. They don't know what to do about my dual degree though. I am the first to get a dual Master's and they just don't know what to do about it, how to list it etc. Nice huh? They only had 3 years to work on it. But no, wait until I bring it up last week before they look into it!

So, now it is a waiting game. How will I be listed, what degree will I get? Oh and they don't know how the board of nursing is going to handle me either, they will see what they tell me. Yeah, they wouldn't want to have called and found out. Or asked the woman who is the board president who happens to be at the school. Nope, that would make sense.

Argh

The first big thing is, despite my panicing and test anxiety, I did pass my test. Whooo, it was stressful when I thought I had failed. I am not happy with my instructor for not knowing the cut off before she had us do test review. I talked with the director to let her know it was the wrong way to handle it.

I had a great catch last night. Number 21 and my last as a student. I got raves from my preceptor, who is the program director, and the midwife who was there. And it just felt right. This midwifery thing is so much for me. Funny to think that after almost 14 years of working and dreaming it is coming true.

Now I need a job. but first, graduation and my party. whoohoo. Can't wait. then start studying for boards, and more boards. 2 different exams. Argh, what was I thinking when I decided on this dual degree.

The first big thing is, despite my panicing and test anxiety, I did pass my test. Whooo, it was stressful when I thought I had failed. I am not happy with my instructor for not knowing the cut off before she had us do test review. I talked with the director to let her know it was the wrong way to handle it.

I had a great catch last night. Number 21 and my last as a student. I got raves from my preceptor, who is the program director, and the midwife who was there. And it just felt right. This midwifery thing is so much for me. Funny to think that after almost 14 years of working and dreaming it is coming true.

Now I need a job. but first, graduation and my party. whoohoo. Can't wait. then start studying for boards, and more boards. 2 different exams. Argh, what was I thinking when I decided on this dual degree.

Needless to say, I have not blogged a lot. Getting down to the stretch now. Big test on Thursday then I am done.

Done...it is sort of settling in to my brain, but isn't there yet.

I think there will be a lot to say about being done. With time.